CONFESSION

Confession #1:
I hate the University of Mississippi (AKA Ole Miss) with a burning passion that runs deep into the depths of my soul.  Oddly, I have nothing against their academics or sports teams. 

truelove

When you're face to face with someone who's upset, besides providing comforting words, the best thing you can do is hug them.  The pressure of your warm body on theirs releases a hormone called oxytocin, which is associated with reduced stress levels, growth, healing, and social bonding. In essence, touch in general reduces stress and anxiety.  When a person is touched by a loved one, centers of the brain associated with fear and danger become less active. 

do it.

i am me.

You see that girl staring into space? If you were to ask what’s wrong, she would say nothing, when in reality it’s everything. She’s sitting there wondering what she did wrong, what she could have done differently, how she would have changed it if she had the chance. And if she had the chance to go back and do it over again, would it end with the same result? That’s why she stares.

you looked me in the eye and swore you weren't lying.

"Trust is not given, it's earned." 

Or at least in my case it's not given.  I'm not the kind of person that just hands out my trust to every single person i know. it's more like trust.  I am very guarded and constantly wonder if what i'm saying to someone in confidence is going to be all over the school the next day.  I haven't always been like this, it was a process that got me to where i stand with trust today.  

people have done things to me to make me so guarded with who i give my trust to. i wish i wasn't this way but i can't help it. 

so when and if i give you my trust, don't screw it up.

The Raft is the Shore

Happiness. By definition happiness is a state of well-being characterized by emotions ranging from contentment to intense joy. Such a simple definition for such a complex thing. I'm sure everyone has experienced at least some amount of happiness in life...unless you're just different or something.  That's not the point. 


I rarely pay very close attention in class, especially when the teacher is going on and on about something I could care less about.  However, once in awhile this rare occasion may come along.  My english teacher had a huge impact on the way I've been viewing life lately.  She said, "The raft is the shore."  The shore being whatever it is in life that makes us happy, our ultimate goal, what we want; the raft being our journey towards that ultimate goal.  Whether it's getting into the college you want or just wanting a certain type of food after school, we all have something we really want and that we know we will be happy if we could just get it.


If we could just...If we could just...


However, I have come to learn from my teacher and now also looking at my life that we can't go through life always wishing we could just have this and that or do this and that so we can achieve happiness.  We have to be happy with where we are right this second.  Because the journey to the shore is the happiness. Right now. The raft.  That is what we must be happy with.  I'm guilty more than most people of looking toward the future praying for it to come faster. But while I'm doing this, I've been missing out on everything around me.  Before I know it I'll be old and it will be too late to enjoy now.  And that's what I'm afraid of.  I'm afraid of what I'll miss if I don't start being happy with where I am right now, even if I can hardly find anything to be happy about. 


So, the current goal is to focus on the present.  The raft is the shore.

always remember