you looked me in the eye and swore you weren't lying.

"Trust is not given, it's earned." 

Or at least in my case it's not given.  I'm not the kind of person that just hands out my trust to every single person i know. it's more like trust.  I am very guarded and constantly wonder if what i'm saying to someone in confidence is going to be all over the school the next day.  I haven't always been like this, it was a process that got me to where i stand with trust today.  

people have done things to me to make me so guarded with who i give my trust to. i wish i wasn't this way but i can't help it. 

so when and if i give you my trust, don't screw it up.