that's just life.

Sometimes I wish life had a pause button. I would even settle for a slow down button. It seems like time is just flying by lately. And I hate it. I hate the thought of feeling empty again. The feeling you get when someone that was there everyday for a long time isnt there anymore. It's like someone punched you in the stomach and it comes on fast. The feeling of limitless and emptiness because that person isn't nearby anymore. There's nothing more comforting than knowing the person you need most is able to be there of you need them. But that's beig taken away from me by a monster called pharmacy school. This isn't intended to make anyone feel bad because of course you cant help having to leave. Nevertheless, it still hurts and will take some getting used to. I dont think I ever fully get used to it. I'm dreading it like I dread taking a medicine I don't like. It might as well be cherry flavored. I don't know what I'll do. Probably be okay until they're gone and then break down like always. No time ever seems enough. The easiest thing to do would be to end it all. But i can't. I would still be miserable that way. So, I guess it's just a lose lose situation. I guess that's just life.